Well, I had a wonderful outing with my friends from back at college this past Saturday! I have missed them so much! I had not seen them in three months!
You know how I can tell a friendship is really grand? When you feel so good being around the ones that you are with, and when you can tell you are cared for as much as you care for them. It was so nice to get such a big roar of excitement the moment I walked in and saw everybody! And everyone wanted to tell me things about their life and hear about mine. We couldn't get enough hugs all night! It is such a marvelous feeling to be loved as much as you love others, and if that is not the way it is, you need to reevaluate your friendships. Even after months of not seeing all of them, our conversations came as naturally as if we had just seen each other yesterday; we were just as engaged and comfortable with each other as ever before. In fact, I have a quote that sums up what I am trying to say perfectly:
I couldn't ask for better friends! I love them so much! They are the family I chose for myself. Even though we don't get to see each other as often as we would like, they are always calling or texting me to see how I am doing. Even if they need to just talk to someone to vent about something on their mind they give me a call just like they would when I was on campus. It is so nice to not only be remembered, but to also be included, as if I have never left their side. I guess you can move from different locations, but true friendship can never truly leave your heart. I am so blessed to have such wonderful unbiological sisters that I am lucky enough to call my best friends.
Ever since I have seen my girls this weekend I have felt better than ever! You know, when you are stuck inside the house all of the time you get really depressed and anxious. In fact, you feel worse. You don't even want to go outside and face the world at all, but I went to see the girls; it was a great way to force me to leave the comforts of home. I missed them so much! I haven't been driving, but you know what, I drove over an hour just one way to meet them, and I did great! I feel like I have regained a missing piece of myself now. It has given me the confidence to drive again, just to know that I could drive downtown, in the evening, on a busy weekend and still be alright. It is so nice to regain some of my independence again!
All of my friends are so supportive of my decision to medically withdraw from school until I can physically handle the workload. And I am so thankful for that! They sre already making plans for me to come stay a week with them at school and go with them on a beach trip for spring break. It's nice to be thought of and included, especially during a most traumatic, struggle-filled time in your life.
Well, today I went to the doctor, and I drove! :) I went to a neurologist appointment about my weird vision changes I had told you all about previously. It seems, according to my doctor, who was very thourough and detailed, that I am experiencing pre-syncope situations. Syncope is the technical term for "passing out." So I am experiencing these episodes of almost passing out and then don't because he says that my adrenaline is very good at kicking in to keep me from fainting. The good thing is I don't need any medicine for this and it is not related to my current health condition. The bad news is that there is not much that you can do except drink plenty of water and make sure that you deep breathe during times that your blood pressure might drop lower than normal, like when bending over. I also need to turn the hot water down when showering and move more slowly. At least I finally know what is going on and I can put my worries to rest!
I could not be as strong without the love and support from all of my friends and family! I guess it took this weekend's event to see that I really do need these amazing people in my life because without them I would not be the strong, loving, independent young adult that I am today. None of us are perfect, but with each other we can handle anything life throws at us and stand by each other's side. It really is amazing how powerful friendship can be to heal the heart and strengthen the soul. Friends are such a special blessing! Hold on to them tightly!
Until next time, go hug a friend! Xoxo,
Chelsea <3
*Today's Happy Thought: FUZZY PILLOWS AND BLANKETS
